i gotta admit.
it's scary to give consent under notification of the worst case scenario/s.
those that could take place during or after surgery.
i did waver a little.
but i remembered that isolated feeling as i watched others dance. i remembered dancing in my dreams, basking in the limelight. i remembered intentionally avoiding dance, thinking that it would perhaps help to ease my pain. i remembered the times i broke down because of the disability to dance. i remembered feeling abandoned.
it's not something that i could just give up. it's my life. it's me.
so i said yes.
surgery date is on 1st feb 2011.
and i'll be spending CNY and 23rd birthday on crutches.
one of a kind birthday!
and of course, i'll make sure i've a good time from end of exams till then
including phuket trip from 18th Jan to 20th Jan 2011.
after that, journey of recovery and journey back to my love.