The Positive

2011-09-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

first y dance experience ytd.

there was fear at e initial stage. ultimately i've not worked w e mentally challenged.

but it was dissipated so quickly.

most appeared to be so friendly and gentle.

so attractively simple.

i've nv felt so relaxed in the longest time. it's a different kind of relaxation for the tired brain.

i dare not say that i've done anything for them at all.

i dare say that they've given me smtg that i'm in need of.

joy, can be so simple.

2011-08-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

that, was a hell crazy fun night.

truly, live for the moment.

GRADUATED!!!

2011-07-31T10:31:00.002+08:00

officially graduated.

i really had tonnes of fun on 29 July, running around and attempting to take photos with the whole world. but of course, i didn't manage to capture everyone :C i would love to though. sighs.

these girls in the photo above probably have no idea how grateful i am towards them. as my family couldn't attend my convo, these girls acted like my proud sisters.

ah shu helped me wear my gown, her kor (mervin) helped me with my tie, they helped me with my safety pin and making me look presentable. ah shu also helped me w my motar board which i absolutely hated. ah shu also gave me her hand-made bouquet which i love so much. she's really good at making beautiful stuff.

ponyo and ah beng popped along with a lion soft toy, a glass of candy and 2 awesome chewy junior (i think i bought it so many times that they know i love it). they are like proud sisters overseeing their younger sister getting prepped up for convocation. they snapped polaroids and took pictures throughout my preparation process, showered me w words of congratulations.

:) i'm blessed to have them. really.

and of course, the 61ners touched me with their presence. the guys got xiu and i flowers (it's really rare LOL) and we just stood ard taking silly photos. now what surprised me the most was that they actually waited for my convo to end to bid farewell to me. my goodness. wad did i do to deserve all these love and kindness?

lastly, really glad to have my CS gang throughout. esp. josey for offering me a ride to ntu w her family :) MUCH NEEDED if not i'm gonna be super late. our constant whatsapping throughout the boring convo name-calling portion. our taking of tonnes of photos. our rubbish talk.

had the most awesome night w josey, mich and zx. after dinner and pre-drinking at newton circus, we headed to soul club where tim and gang were at. it was REALLY FUN. it's been a long time since i played w zx real glad that she came along.

well, i shall end off w the famous statement our great valedictorian made at the end of her speech:

we fucking made it!

2011-07-23T16:21:00.002+08:00

i had a very random dream.

ok, not exactly very random. it was about convocation. i realised at the very last minute that i wasn't in the right attire (no collars) and was in fact in a very casual outfit of my hot pink shirt and jeans (yes i can even rem that!). so mum and i went around the school shops to see if they're selling any formal wear (as if ntu has any... anyways e school setting doesn't even look remotely like ntu) but to no avail. den in e end i realised that all along it was tgt with my convo gowns -.- and then mama went missing so i had to search the school for her and when she was found, convo was over.

told my bro abt the dream and he said it must be dat i felt that i wasn't professional enough for this job (coz of the formal wear) but with time, i must have realised that it's actually all with me already, just that i haven't noticed it.

HAHAHA perhaps? perhaps?

aiya, im sure my convo will b smooth and we can all b out for drinks after dat :D

2011-07-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

we are just plain awesome.

;)

2011-07-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

a brand new beginning.

2011-07-01T21:21:00.001+08:00

YYへ、

YYさんの家は住むできてくれて本とにありがとうね～YYさんと家族おかげで、きっとうれしいかった。親切なお母さんとお兄さんがいるだし、おいしい食べ物を扱うし、USSに一緒に行けるし、そして、いいな部屋を寝なかった。大体は猫たちも親切。Haha。＾＾

何も違うのことがあれば、ごめなさいね。知らないだから。＞＜そして、YYさんののどがよくないなった本とにごめんなさい、私だから。＝（　

じゃあ、KLに行くつもりのとき、絶対私の知らせてね、家族とかYYさんとか。YYさんの喉早く良くなったらといいんですね。旅行も楽しんでね。仕事もいつも良くなります！最後は、あなたが友達をいるは本とにうれしい、これからも連絡取り合いましょうね～＜３

ハントンより

:) it's a pleasure to have you at my place, silly tong tong!

2011-07-01T20:56:00.003+08:00

satisfied after my workout today :)

i thought i lost momentum just within 5 days of going off to Hainan w pup, rong and rong's sis li.

speaking of which, the trip, was, memorable.

i was truly lucky to have great travel companions though!

zomg i'm starting work on MONDAY! eggcited and scared at the same time larrrrrrrrrr.

but actually my worry is just that, i won't be able to workout as frequent once i start work :(

how how how...

2011-05-30T10:21:00.002+08:00

"Toiletting in dreams represents creativity."

"Dreaming of using the toilet may be your desire to rid yourself of something that contributes nothing to your well being."

"To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself"."

"Alternatively, a bathroom symbolizes purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically."

2011-05-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

first ever proper visit to the gym.

and that 1.5 hr felt real good.

2011-05-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

i wanna let u know i enjoy every moment spent with ya.

2011-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

if i can have any super power, i'll want to freeze the time.

there and then.

でも無理だ

2011-04-24T17:27:00.003+08:00

you're my happy pill.

on a side note, we really always eat jap food together.

hahahaha

2011-04-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

suddenly thought of u and ah well, i knew that i can't stay angry w u for long de. and it was true. hur hur. i'm just too much of ur fan. i guess. lunches soon! :)

i really like it when others confide in me coz it makes me feel that i'm someone whom they can rely on. someone whom they can trust their secrets with.

i think you've a beautiful dream. it's very simple, yet seems so difficult to attain. at least in my eyes.

but i can't deny the beauty of it. and how i envy u to be capable of believing in it.

i hope that you're feeling much better already. let's jiayou together! \(^.^)/

*hugs*

2011-04-10T13:32:00.003+08:00

i can remember my dream! the images are super vivd!

in my dream i was in this room which seems pretty ancient, but it's not the creepy kinda ancient. it just gave me a very comfortable feel. i forgot who else were in the room with me. they are not important anyway.

in my dream, i was looking in the direction of the opened store room. no one else but I dared to get a closer look at those gleaming pair of eyes in the dark. when it saw me, it jumped up to a table in front of me and started rolling on its back. at first it looked like a cat with brown and white fur but i realised that it was a weasel! and it loved me a lot as it pounced onto me, climbed around me and allowed me to stroke it.

i could still feel the euphoria. i love animals.

i asked mum if i could keep it. and mum said if i let go of it (i guess i was carrying it then) and it doesn't run away, then i can keep it. however, when i let it go, it ran off. jumped across the moss covered rooftops and disappeared.

i wonder if there's any hidden meaning in this dream.

anyway, I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A WEASEL AS A PET NOW. seems more likely than having an owl, hurh?

2011-04-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

OH GOD I REMEMBER NOW.

what i wanted to say was, if my PI boss was nice, i wouldn't mind working back there at all.

sighs. well life just ain't that perfect.

2011-04-05T20:46:00.001+08:00

oh my god.

i had a sudden urge to blog about smtg, but after replying a sms, i forgot wad i wanted to blog.

i'm such a goldfish. omg...

2011-04-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

the prince and princess are in the same boat NOW.

i mean, we always are in the same boat but what i wanna say is that we're really in the same boat.

it's kinda a LOL moment. haha.

future self, look at princess's blog entry.

2011-03-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

that was the best hug ever.

2011-03-27T15:57:00.002+08:00

you know what.

despite the many things that we've been through, words can't suffice to describe how glad I am to have you in my life.

i'm really so happy to know you.

and i hope our friendship will last long.

2011-03-14T14:52:00.001+08:00

i feel it.

2011-03-09T12:07:00.001+08:00

tell me why am i so easily tickled.

or rather, so easily tickled by ultimate weird stuff...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwzddLCgtb8

2011-03-05T23:04:00.001+08:00

although oh oh doesn't know why i'm sad, he tried his best to cheer me up.

and i felt so loved

2011-02-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

vulnerability is the essence of romance.

2011-02-26T13:01:00.002+08:00

this is what weeks of home confinement did to me

2011-02-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

hmm...hmm...

2011-02-05T17:49:00.003+08:00

my first ever surgery was on 1st February 2011.

and everything went smoothly.

well, just that i've got 2 operations done on my left knee. basically one on the front ligament and another on the side ligament.

e doc was saying my knee was buckling outwards T.T

seems like it's a good decision to have it done asap afterall! to prevent anything else from happening (i can b so reckless i know)

anyways, before i went for op, i actually wrote a sort of will.

nothing much really, just some of the things that i would like to say to my significant few.

and i asked one of my friends to be mentally prepared to post the note on facebook should i not b able to wake up from the surgery.

the best thing is, i survived.

the note shall just remain as a fragment of my memory, for now.

from now onwards,

anything and everything can only be better.

coz the most difficult day is only yesterday.

happy new year!

*though i dun celebrate it since 3 years ago

2011-01-31T21:31:00.002+08:00

scared. but more or less prepared.

ytd i dreamt of myself fighting for dance studio with other dance instructors. it may not be much but to me, it's a good dream.

coz it just means that i'll be able to dance and fight for dance studio, again.

jiayou ba yy

2011-01-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

stage, wait for me.

2011-01-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

most of the time, it's really the company that matters.

2011-01-08T00:26:00.002+08:00

do you know that just the mere thought of you is enough to make me smile like an idiot?

it doesn't matter that there's no world peace, or bright stars in the sky.

2010-12-31T18:04:00.003+08:00

finally. we're coming to an end of 2010.

i'm not saying that it has been a particularly bad year for me, but it has not been extremely good too.

internship took up a good half of my 2010. i've learnt, no qualms about that. and i'm thankful for e experience.

year 2010 made my dreams come true with GSS in Japan. that has got to be the best part of my year :)

most excruciating experience will be my first ever serious injury acquired through dance. it was hard to endure the different pains. and i'm still suffering from it, albeit on a smaller scale. time heals. as always.

Inner Reflexion III is my first baby with Keke. we've survived the many challenging issues and emerged relatively successful. seriously dunno wad i'll do without Keke :) she's the one.

relationships wise, year 2010 has brought me on a roller coaster ride. sometimes it was really fast. sometimes it came to an absolute standstill. sometimes it was slow and gradual. sometimes it was gruesomely shaky and ugly. sometimes it was purely sweet and divine. nevertheless, i'm grateful. things happen for a reason or two. i just wish for a calmer year ahead.

someone told me that i should have some new year resolutions. well, a new beginning beckons some new changes to the old self. so here's 3 and i hope that they won't be made in vain.

1. be more motivated in life

2. be more positive in life

3. learn to believe

all else aside... we're all gonna walk into a new beginning in 6 hours' time. it's gonna be so bright that we won't know what's in front of us. but that doesn't matter as we never knew anything about the future. so let's just bring with us whatever we have, and welcome the new year, 2011.

it's gonna be a better year ahead. coz the only tough one was yesteryear.

2010-12-19T02:50:00.003+08:00

never have a bad day ever again: thinking about someone fancying you.

2010-12-17T19:14:00.005+08:00

i gotta admit.

it's scary to give consent under notification of the worst case scenario/s.

those that could take place during or after surgery.

i did waver a little.

but i remembered that isolated feeling as i watched others dance. i remembered dancing in my dreams, basking in the limelight. i remembered intentionally avoiding dance, thinking that it would perhaps help to ease my pain. i remembered the times i broke down because of the disability to dance. i remembered feeling abandoned.

it's not something that i could just give up. it's my life. it's me.

so i said yes.

surgery date is on 1st feb 2011.

and i'll be spending CNY and 23rd birthday on crutches.

one of a kind birthday!

and of course, i'll make sure i've a good time from end of exams till then

including phuket trip from 18th Jan to 20th Jan 2011.

after that, journey of recovery and journey back to my love.

can't wait.

2010-12-11T13:57:00.002+08:00

忙しい時僕は自分の事ついて考えることができない。
でも、その事だけ分かる。
今までは僕が君と本当に嬉しかった。
もういいよ。

ありがとうね。

live the moment.

未来太遥远
活在当下吧！

=]

2010-12-06T00:14:00.005+08:00

THEY DID IT AGAIN!!!!

Best show of the year, FOR SURE!!!!

seriously thought that last year was good and it was impossible for them to do it again...

BUT THEY DID!!!!!

was so uber excited when they announced the best lead actor and actress awards.

I LOVE YALL!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!

鄧萃雯真的好有气质！演技也真的是没得顶！

黎耀祥不帅但超有型又超有性格，赞！

我好喜欢他们！这种爱情好凄美~

陈法拉好可爱好无辜真的是令人怜爱好喜欢她~

陈浩然因为这部戏我会记得你的真名！你也很可爱~

明年是否能再次给我们个惊喜呢？

-期待期待-

*糟了现在好想去香港 =(

2010-12-04T15:58:00.003+08:00

i was bored so i read through my first few entries.

wow.

it just hit me that i've been blogging for 6 years.

what a kid. shes sounds like a rather annoying one too.

:P

2010-12-02T17:47:00.002+08:00

i had so much fun ytd! :)

singing w G4 after 3.5 yrs was awesome. i love singing w this buncha crazy nuts. felt like i was in jc again.

man, i miss jc.

not the studying, no.

anw, we went zouk after that. met up w gerald and mich they all. drank and danced the night away. slept at 7.30am and woke up w a slight headache.

and well, some things in life are really unfathomable. i was surprised that i actually got to know someone as i always have the preconceived notion that i'll never get to know him.

it's pretty amazing. how life works.

2010-11-30T16:49:00.002+08:00

太阳雨好漂亮好漂亮！

2010-11-27T19:35:00.003+08:00

本当に変だよ。
ちょっと前の君より最近の君の方が嬉しい。
その事だけ、私も嬉しい。
多分ね。。。もう一回倒れた
君は知りますか？

不管怎么样，虽然自认是白痴
还是会很不自觉地独自庆祝你的快乐

:)

hello-ween...

2010-11-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

2010-10-22T20:11:00.003+08:00

i had tonnes of strange dreams recently.

currently i can only rem the one in which i had a cute boy tutee.

hmm...

OH.

i rem.

i got chase out of the performance area by my dancers.

that was a bad dream =(

anyways, can i custom-make my dream? i think that'll be cool.

feng kexin, if u happened to know any dream sellers who appear to take the form of a cat, tell her i'll love to buy a dream.

just one will do. i dun wanna be addicted and wish to live in dreams forever.

2010-10-14T09:33:00.003+08:00

Due to the recent Chilean miners' rescue, miraculous survival stories sprang out.

http://news.uk.msn.com/photos/photos.aspx?cp-documentid=154961521&page=1

2 sides of me surfaced to fight when i was reading through all these amazing stories.

1. if i were to be one of those involved in disaster, i would rather die immediately so that i won't have to bear any pain

2. if i were so lucky as to survive the ordeal, i should stay strong and live, for fate and destiny decided that it's not time for me to leave, yet.

to my lil' surprise, 2 won.

what doesn't kill you only serve to make you stronger.

and i sincerely believe in that.

hope i'll survive my 40% quiz tml!

=)

2010-10-13T14:12:00.003+08:00

this sudden revelation that i had stemmed from smtg really random.

i only brought a box of tissue to hall, but lots of tissue packets. i kept on using the tissue from tissue box when i'm in the room, until i realised that it seems to be finishing. hence i started conserving coz i dun wanna buy any boxes of tissue. i started using tissue packets when i'm in the room starting from the day before.

until today, i realised that all along, i've been conserving just 2 pieces of tissue in the tissue box.

have i been holding on to something that is not worth being held on to all along?

i splurged the tissue packets coz i've lots to spare but conserved on the tissue box coz i've only one. but in the end the conscious effort of saving on the tissue box tissue did not pay off.

will this happen in real life as well?

Like you said, fresh month, fresh start. Let's hope that October 2010 will be e turning point for us :)

2010-10-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

2010-10-01T10:37:00.002+08:00

i was at the beach. playing with sandcastles and seawater alone.

then i was at a grocery shop. this shop staff, a middle-aged man, accused me of stealing fermented beancurd.

but all i did was opening it up and offering it to my friends in the shop, which included a mixture of friends from everywhere.

my friends supported me all the way, insisting that i'm going to make payment at the counter before i walked out of the shop. the guy was not convinced, until he realised that he actually recognised one of my friends.

suddenly, from a 3rd person perspective, i saw many HK actors and actresses and it appeared to be like i'm watching a HK drama... like a finale scene.

and then, i'm teleported to the front of a 2nd hand toy shop and before i knew it, i'm mesmerised by the dancing toys.

dreams fascinate me.

The Confiteor Of the Artist

2010-09-29T12:08:00.000+08:00

How penetrating is the end of an autumn day! Ah, yes, penetrating enough to be painful even; for there are certain delicious sensations whose vagueness does not prevent them from being intense; and none more keen than the perception of the Infinite.

He has a great delight who drowns his gaze in the immensity of sky and sea. Solitude, silence, the incomparable chastity of the azure a little sail trembling upon the horizon, by its very littleness and isolation imitating my irremediable existence the melodious monotone of the surge all these things thinking through me and I through them (for in the grandeur of the reverie the Ego is swiftly lost); they think, I say, but musically and picturesquely, without quibbles, without syllogisms, without deductions.

These thoughts, as they arise in me or spring forth from external objects, soon become always too intense.

- Charles Baudelaire

thanks for sharing apple :)

The Next Ten Minutes Lyrics

2010-09-29T03:00:00.003+08:00

JAMIE
No, that one's Jerry Seinfeld
That one's John Lennon there
No, the Dakota
The San Remo is up a few blocks
Have you been inside the Museum?
We should go
Meet the dinosaurs

cathy

Will you share your life with me
For the next ten minutes?
For the next ten minutes
We can handle that
We could watch the waves
We could watch the sky
Or just sit and wait
As the time ticks by
And if we make it till then
Can I ask you again
For another ten?

And if you in turn agree
To the next ten minutes
And the next ten minutes
Till the morning comes
Then just holding you
Might compel me to
Ask you for more
There are so many lives I want to share with you
I will never be complete until I do

CATHERINE
I'm not always on time
Please don't expect that from me
I will be late
But if you can just wait
I will make it eventually

Not like it's in my control
Not like I'm proud of the fact
But anything other than being exactly on time
I can do

I don't know why people run
I don't know why things fall through
I don't know how anybody survives in this life
Without someone like you
I could protect and preserve
I could say no and goodbye
But why, Jamie, why?

I want to be your wife
I want to bear your child
I want to die
Knowing I
Had a long, full life in your arms
That I can do
Forever, with you

JAMIE
Will you share your life with me

CATHERINE
Forever

JAMIE
For the next ten lifetimes?

CATHERINE
Forever, Jamie

JAMIE
For a million summers

BOTH
Till the world explodes
Till there's no one left
Who has ever known us apart

JAMIE
There are so many dreams
I need to see with you...

CATHERINE
There are so many years
I need to be with you...

JAMIE
I will never be complete

CATHERINE
I will never be alive

JAMIE
I will never change the world
Until I do

CATHERINE
I do

JAMIE
I do

CATHERINE
I do

BOTH
I do...

CATHERINE
Is that one John Lennon?
That's the San Remo
Isn't that the Museum?
Can we go see the dinosaurs?

P.S. Mel, thanks for the lovely song and lovely choreo. You're amazing i swear... (:

2010-09-27T12:29:00.001+08:00

apple said that a good concert is a concert with heart.

that sets me thinking.

was our concert, Inner Reflexion III, a good one?

2010-09-27T00:39:00.001+08:00

fresh in hall!

finally no more waking up in the wee hours of morning (but yes to sleeping to) and no more squashing with tonnes of morning sulking faces.

^.^

2010-09-25T00:03:00.002+08:00

yay i got hall! :)
hall 2 block 3 level 2 room 60.
razzie said it's directly over otah's. woots.

and of course. went CGH for appointment with sports doc.
xray. nth wrong with bones.
doc said dat i've sustained a real strange injury.
it might be a meniscus tear (which is much more serious)
but it might be a muscle sac burst (or smtg... which will heal on its own)
am to go for physio and try to walk properly these 2 to 3 weeks
should things remain the same, had to return for MRI... which is freaking expensive :(
let's hope that things will turn out well... for once.

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beautiful hangover.

2010-09-22T17:09:00.002+08:00

chen lili actually asked my mum if i'm attached and when she heard the answer, she told my mum that i shld find one soon if not it'll be difficult after graduation.

-.-

i feel that i'm either one of the following;-
a) a product with defect that's being left on the shelf and yet refusing to be sold on discount
b) an extremely pricey item that's also refusing to be sold on discount and yes, still being left on the shelf.

-.-

and chen lili really seems to be very concerned abt this aspect of my life. she never even asked if i'm healing and when i can get back to dance!

why liddat!!!!

2010-09-14T19:32:00.001+08:00

looking into your eyes brought me back to childhood days

and that is really interesting

:)

五月天，字字句句，点点滴滴

2010-09-10T17:19:00.001+08:00

第一部分：励志篇

1、人生海海——就算整个世界把我抛弃，而至少快乐伤心我自己决定。所以我说、就让它去，我知道潮落之后一定有潮起，有什么了不起。

2、出头天——在我的天顶大雨落不停，也不能改变到我的固执。永远等待那一日咱可以出头天，人生不怕风浪只怕自己没志气。

3、小时候——当你的心已累，以为失去了一切，其实等在前面还有一整个世界。当你的爱已碎，以为纯真会幻灭，其实等在前面、还有一整个世界，新的视野、新的起点。

4、花——当风雨都过去迎着风看天空，不放弃才能够有感动。这一生这一次为自己抬起头，至少要骄傲的盛开过。

5、约翰蓝侬——能不能暂时把你的梦想给我，在勇气快消失的时候，总有一天要人们叫我披头，最后没成功也作过最美的梦，没有遗憾最美的梦。

6、咸鱼——我不好也不坏不特别出众，我只是敢不同，我的人生就是一错再错，错完了再从头。也许放弃掉一些，活得更轻松，我却不再是我。我不愿一生晒太阳吹风，咸鱼也要有梦。

我没有任何天分，我却有梦的天真，我是傻不是蠢，我将会证明，用我的一生。

7、放肆——就放肆爱放肆追、放肆去闯、放肆是我的信仰，再不去闯、梦想永远只会是一个梦想。想太多又想太重的梦想，还不如乾脆不多想。每一个险恶的浪，都会有浪花绽放，我决定边冲边欣赏。梦想永远是逆向，一路都有人阻挡，人们说的荒唐、却是我的心中的天堂！

8、倔强——逆风的方向，更适合飞翔，我不怕千万人阻挡，只怕自己投降。

9、OK啦——喔喔ok啦，放轻松才快活，失败嘛无算啥。

10、一颗苹果——时间如果可以倒流，我想我还是会卯起来蹉跎，反正就这样吧、我知道我努力过。

11、我心中尚未崩坏的地方——就算会有一天，没人与我合唱，至少在我的心中，还有个尚未崩坏的地方。

12、憨人——我不是好子，嘛不是歹人，我只是爱眠梦。

第二部分:后悔篇

1、闯——我不懂我不是这样我不该这样，额头流下的汗又流进眼眶，为什么要给我一颗跳动的心脏，却忘了给我飞翔的翅膀。每天我活在这多无聊的地方多么想要流浪，这世界有多大我就有多彷徨，有没有一点希望让我去闯。

2、九号球——也许我这一杆，又没办法进球，就像我的生活，一直在出差错。也许我这一生，始终在追逐那颗九号球，却忘了是谁在爱我，却忘了是谁在罩着我。

3、生命有一种绝对——想要征服的世界，始终都没有改变，那地上无声蒸发我的泪。黑暗中期待光线，生命有一种绝对。等待我、请等待我，直到约定融化成笑颜，直到我看见生命的绝对。

4、一颗苹果——经过了漫长的等候，梦想是梦想，我还是一个我。那时间忘记挽留最美时候，不经意匆匆的放过。曾经想拥抱的彩虹，盛开的花朵和那纯真的笑容。突然有风吹过，那一转眼只剩我。我不懂人世间的那些愁，它为什麼要缠著我，到底这会是谁的错，还是我不放手。

5、疯狂世界——如果说了后悔，是不是一切就能倒退，回忆多么美，活着多么狼狈。

6、如烟——有没有那麽一个明天，重头活一遍，让我再次感受曾挥霍的昨天，无论生存或生活我都不浪费，不让故事这麽的后悔。

第三部分：回忆篇

1、如烟——有没有那麽一张书签，停止那一天，最单纯的笑脸和最美那一年。书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水，双眼只有无猜和无邪，让我们无法无天。

2、笑忘歌——伤心的都忘记了，只记得这首笑忘歌，那一年天空很高风很清澈，从头到脚趾都快乐。

3、时光机——那阳光碎裂在熟悉场景，好安静、一个人能背多少的往事，真不轻。谁的笑、谁的温暖的手心，我着迷、伤痕好像都变成了曾经。

4、后青春期的诗——当烟雾随晨光飘散，枕畔的湖已风乾，期待已退化成等待，而我告别了突然。

5、夜访吸血鬼——看爱过的人，一一告别，做过的梦，一一凋谢，只留下我独自残喘的千年。

6、你不是真正的快乐——你静静忍着，紧紧把昨天在拳心握着，而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了，越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割。

7、知足——终于你身影消失在人海尽头，才发现、笑着哭最痛。

8、疯狂世界——如果说了后悔，是不是一切就能倒退。回忆多么美，活着多么狼狈。为什么这个世界，总要叫人尝伤悲，我不能了解，也不想了解。

9、盛夏光年——我骄傲的破坏，我痛恨的平凡，才想起那些是我最爱。让盛夏去贪玩，把残酷的未来，狂放到光年外。

10、拥抱——昨天太近，明天太远，默默聆听那黑夜。晚风吻尽，荷花叶，任我醉倒在池边。

第四部分：爱情篇

1、志明和春娇——走到淡水的海岸，两个人的爱情，已经无人看已经无人听，啊......我跟你最好就到这，你对我已经没感觉，到这冻止你也免爱我。

2、牙关——如果你爱过我，你不会就这样走，就这样丢下我和那些天真承诺。 3、恒星的恒心——我不是很聪明，我以为我可以，守护你一直到最后一丝呼吸。我只是没发现，故事已结局，你早已离去，我还在坚定。

4、嘿，我要走了——爱你那么用力，却好像一场闹剧。

5、突然好想你——我们像一首最美丽的歌曲，变成两部悲伤的电影。为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行，然后留下最痛的纪念品。我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信，那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经，为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去。

6、知足——终于你身影消失在人海尽头，才发现，笑着哭最痛。那样的回忆那么足够，足够我天天都品尝着寂寞。

7、错错错——如果说最后宜静不是嫁给了大雄，一生相信的执着一秒就崩落，我该同意吗，你说拥有不如精采过，还说今后我们是最好的朋友。

8、回来吧——所有的人都说时间是魔法，说总有一天我能忘记最深爱的他，为什么呢，想念每天都增加，痛、钻进灵魂占据回忆在生命发芽，呐喊挣扎期待的未来啊，难道这么就算了吗。

9、温柔——我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦，没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过，如果有，就让你自由。

10、而我知道——你说爱情很窄，世界很大，而我们应该长大，就这样吧，就这样吧，我想我听懂你话中的话。

11、听不到——我的声音在笑，泪在飙，电话那头的你可知道，世界若是那麽大，为何我要忘你无处逃。

12、如烟——有没有那麽一滴眼泪，能洗掉后悔，化成大雨降落在回不去的街，再给我一次机会将故事改写，还欠了他一生的一句抱歉。

13、我们.时时刻刻——你话中的计算，准确的伤害，像精心打造的对白，我划开了动脉，也许不醒来，至少昨天无法毁坏。 14、彩虹——其实我不知道，眼泪有没有流，就像这故事中，你有没有爱过我。 15、时光机——好后悔，好伤心，谁把我放回去，我愿意，付出所有来换一个时光机。 16、超人——为什么拯救地球是那么容易，为什么束手无策啊，我和你的爱情。 17、明白——我矛盾的心，不愿反复地猜，我在这里等待，就算天塌下来，希望你能明白。 18、相信——故事的最后结局，结束在那年冬季，孤单的冰冷风里，于是我问问自己，还能不能够相信，另一段爱情靠近。

19、enrich your life——幸福不是多，而是遗忘，能遗忘生命的烦恼忧伤。

20、让我照顾你——让我照顾你，让你未来放在我肩上。

21、happy birthday——一风筝和风在缠绵，诗人和诗在兜圈，你坐在我身边，这一种快乐无法描写。

22、I love you无望——梦中可爱的人，伊不是别人。

23、阿姆斯壮——为你而笑，为你发疯，你叹气我刮风，爱情不自由，没有关系，我可以接受。

24、爱情的模样——你是谁，教我狂恋，教我勇敢地挑战全世界。

25、八月爱人——而我的爱人，品尝天空的泪水，而我的爱人，静静地淌着血，而我的爱人，像公主一样沉默。

26、纯真——我想我应该轻轻放开你的手，我却没有力气这么做。

27、雌雄同体——只要你爱我一切都没问题，只要你爱我一切都没问题。

28、疯狂世界——想了你一整夜，再也想不起你的脸，你是一种感觉，写在夏夜晚风里面。

29、好不好——我一生唯一的希望，要给你快乐，好或不好。

30、金色大街——金色大街，摇摇欲坠，在你说不爱我的那一天。无路可退，你太美，干脆让我死在你眼前。

31、恋爱ing——你是空气，但是好闻胜过了空气，你是阳光，但是却能照进半夜里。

32、麦来乱——麦搁来乱，无缘的人，去爱别人。

33、轻功——最近很需要爱情，让我这一生混乱，能平静。

34、圣诞夜惊魂——你的吻，我的惊魂，故事就突然发生。

35、私奔到月球——一二三牵着手，四五六抬起头，七八九我们私奔到月球。

36、天使——像孩子依赖着肩膀，像眼泪依赖着脸庞，你就像天使一样，给我依赖，给我力量。

37、透露——这是全天下最完美的阵容，我和你，你和我，狂飙爱意突然变得好猛，在此刻向你完全透露。

38、王子面——与其给我誓言，不如陪我消遣，给我王子倒不如王子面。

39、忘词——在你的面前我就变得很笨拙，就像是一个不断忘词的歌手，我练习过彩排过这个时候，却又说不出口。

40、为爱而生——爱是一种天份，还是一种天真，我不多想，我不多问，让爱忘了分寸。

41、我又初恋了——谁知道主歌才一半，桥段都还没唱出来，就突然你的出现爆破了悲哀。

42、小太阳——你说等我，不管多漫长。

43、虚弱——爱你，爱我，都不爱比较不同。我要活在有你的世界中，我要活在有你的春夏秋冬。

44、燕尾蝶——我喜，我悲，我的生活，为你放弃自由，要为你左右。

45、一千个世纪——啊哈，我要和你一起走过一千个世纪，下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁，每次轮回都是为你。

46、拥抱——想你要求的誓言，就算是你的谎言，我需要爱的慰藉，就算那爱已如潮水。

47、有你的将来——找不到你的真情真爱，你的心像大海，听不到阮的真心，真意的无奈。

48、最重要的小事——就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙活过一辈子，也要分分秒秒年年日日全心守护你。

49、走火入魔——一字一句一瞬间走了火，一天一点一转眼入了魔。

50、心中无别人——是你给阮一个梦，未记人生的苦涩，真正想要对你说，心中无别人。

第五部分：疯狂篇（high翻天）

1、盛夏光年——让定律更简单，让秩序更混乱，这样的青春我才喜欢；让剩下去贪玩，把残酷的未来，狂放到光年外。

2、DNA——想要叫，那就叫，想要甩就甩跳就跳，跳更高，别靠腰，要靠心脏的火药。

3、爆肝——不是不吃早餐，不是不想养肝，我只是太多辛苦心酸心情需要被溺爱。不是故意学坏，不是不知悔改，我只是不想要管不想要管不想不想管。

4、放肆——梦想永远是逆向，一路都有人阻挡，人们说的荒唐，却是我的心中的天堂。

5、疯狂世界——我好想好想飞，逃离这个疯狂世界，如果是你发现了我，也别将我挽回。

6、离开地球表面——冲啥大，冲啥小，冲啥都有人唱反调，恨得多，爱得少，只想越跳越疯，越跳越高，把地球甩掉。

7、噢买尬——混啊混啊混啊混到天空都老啦，计划依然没有变化，剩下我们说的神话梦话废话，就这样陪着我到长大。

8、孙悟空——齐天大圣是我，谁能奈何了我。

9、轧车——作阵来轧车，作阵来轧车，不管伊警察底抓，不管伊父母底骂，只要我引擎催落，无人可当甲我轧，在这我最快最趴最大。

10、终结孤单——心情好，心情坏，怎么开始怎么办。

11、抓狂——我要飞，而你却像埋葬梦想的高墙，我要跳，而你却像地心引力那么强。

12、春天的呐喊——方向盘指向南，一路都不转弯，除非我看到沙滩，看到大海，看到未来。

13、开天窗——你看看天空和海洋，顺风时就展开双翅飞翔，逆风时就当成在冲浪，没有风的时候那就让我开开天窗。

第六部分：友情篇

1、宠上天——是我的朋友就是我的baby，就算你打我踢我也都OK，就是要宠你宠你宠上了天，天堂整个搬到你身边。

2、金多虾——金多虾，金多虾，多谢你这多年来一直陪伴我唱歌。

3、垃圾车——你若不爽，我是你的垃圾车，每天听你的心声。

4、噢买尬——噢买尬，噢买尬，真的太久不见啦，我随时OK就等你电话。

5、孙悟空——如果能有一天，再一次重返光荣，记得找我，我的好朋友。

6、米老鼠——以为我爱著孤独，却又崩溃的无助，谁能让我拥抱著尽情的哭，让我唯一的朋友不是老鼠。

谢谢老弟的fb post! :)

dream

2010-09-06T21:04:00.003+08:00

yesterday i dreamt that the present me went back to look for the 5 year old me at my very first dance school.

the timeline was a little wrong (since i only started proper dancing at 7) but it was so very real. I was sitting amongst the audience, watching little me dancing with the rest.

and gosh, i was far from good. although i'm far from good as of present but i'm definitely better than last time. i stumbled and stunned when i forgot my actions, which actually happened most of the time.

at the end of the rehearsal, our dance principal sat us all down and (for some strange and totally random reasons) commented that little me has the potential to become a great DJ. perhaps that's her subtle way of saying that little me will never become a good dancer.

after which, i went up to the little one, who stared at me with her pretty eyes (well, at least i thought so! hehe). i rubbed my face against hers and told her to jiayou and that i will jiayou as well.

i left after that and went into the old storage place for costumes (that must be due to my recent bombarding of emails to search for costumes). my dance teacher who happens to be my present dance teacher in NTU came in and asked me to help with her search. so i did.

shortly after that, i woke up.

i told my brother about it. it was so real and fascinating. perhaps it did happen! my brother asked me to return to that dream tonight to warn little me about 2nd Sept 2010, for that was my first time sustaining a serious injury from dance. he said that next day, perhaps my crutches will disappear and everything will be back to normal.

sighs.

i love dreaming.

Suit up YY Ng, you know you can do it!!! 頑張ってね‼

2010-08-31T10:10:00.001+08:00

2010-08-30T00:09:00.001+08:00

9 months away from school is crazy. I felt like a freshie all over again.

except that i'm an experienced freshie :P

going to explore ntu with fav xin and eddie tml!

2010-08-29T02:51:00.003+08:00

zomg i miss S-Club 7

and i miss 7 Wonders

i'm sorry that dance has taken me away from you guys... but i'll make-up for it k!

:) can't wait to see yall!

kitty went to keke's place today... i miss her jumping around, clawing and biting me... :( but i know that she'll be a happy kitty at keke's!

zomg it's 3am... but it feels awesome to catch-up with chocolate bear! x)

2010-08-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

\(^.^)/

live the moment

a happy person has a bad memory for unhappy happenings

2010-08-23T13:46:00.006+08:00

Dear Blog,

here we go again. i'm sorry for breaking up with u. i'm regretting this on a random day in school when there's no one online that i'm interested to talk to and there's no one accompanying me. now, i'm turning to u asking for ur forgiveness. i would love to pick u up again. i'll try my best to learn to love u whole heartedly.

let me tell u wad happened during the period of break-up. i had the trip of my life in summer 2010. finally,i got to visit dreamland Japan. it was beyond fabulous. till now, i still can't help but think that it's my best dream ever. everything, and i meant everything. when i came back, i felt that i just woke up from my sweet slumber.

all the photos are with our friend, FB. she's been an awesome companion during our break-up. she aids me with the healing and records my daily dream. FB is real fun, she decided to call the albums 'itravel' coz all my photos are taken with iPhone. speaking of which, iPhone has been a lil' cranky on me too. I guess it's angry with our break up, till the extent that it refuses to listen to my commands and dies on me frequently.

tml marks the 2nd week of my return to reality. reality is made fabulous coz of dance. i miss it a lot when i was in hibernation. my body was aching all over coz i was too stiff from hibernation and i had some bruises. but the feeling of being able to dance is enough to make up for it all :)

and here comes my random comment of the day. is it me, or are more ppl ard me asking me to get a bf?! even the nanyang house office auntie said that to me today! (just coz i was telling her that i need to wake up at 4plus in the morning tml to get ready for YOG perf and i told her that i'm gonna travel alone). oh man... Blog, u know best how hard it is yar? wells, let's just go with nature and destiny. if it'll happen, it'll happen.

*choosy... hmmm... am i really? i just want someone who bothers to understand me and someone whom i bother to understand. but none has been truly mutual. in this huge library of books, i've skimmed through many but only to find none that truly got me hooked like an addiction. perhaps it's not time yet...

oh man, school is starting. and i haven't gotten a hall. it feels like year 2 all over again. i shall pay a visit to hall 2 later and see what i can get from them...

btw Blog, i got an A- for GSS Jap! ^.^ not bad at all for someone who slacked so much!

P.S. if i were to be a bean, i'll like to be a jellybean :) for no good reason at all.

P.P.S. Shin Megami Tensei is AWESOME!!! yes yes, it's another new DS game x) i wanna play pokemon black/white too!

Yours Truly,
YY

2010-06-18T11:49:00.003+08:00

ZOMG.

I'M FINALLY HERE!

TRANSITION FROM HELL TO HEAVEN

WILL BE COMPLETED IN 0.5 DAY

^.^

2010-06-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

The silent bus, a well-refrigerated carton of hairy eggs on wheels, crawls with its cargo ever onward. The driver slow and steady, afraid to wake and break the fragile dreams of those gently bobbing and nodding off to work, heads soon to be cracked open..nothing left but hardboiled stares, poached lives, faces sunny-side up...

2010-05-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday razzie!!!!! ^.^

2010-04-22T00:27:00.001+08:00

first LAN gaming experience!

l4d2!

OMG~ FUN!

thanks josey for being my mentor.

you're hot, pussycat *winks

2010-04-17T11:20:00.001+08:00

perhaps i'm silly to bask in this temporary happiness

but at least i'm happy now

and what else matters?

=)

2010-04-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

you know who

i'm so glad to have you back.

2010-03-31T23:56:00.002+08:00

YES

YY CAN DRIVE

finally not feeling so much like a loser

2010-03-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

Watched "How to train your dragon"
FINALLY. THE TASTE OF CINEMA.
yums
And found this cute poster in jap.
I love Toothless!
I want a dragon too!!!
And I'm sure the person who came up with the story loves cats too
the dragons are simply modeled after cats!
you'll know what I mean after watching this
Oh and I kinda love the ending.
Not that I'm really sadistic or what
But I feel that an imperfect ending is more real and believable
There's no such thing as happily ever after
well
Perhaps I'm just not a believer.
*shrugs*

I realised that I miscounted my internship period.
From 4th Jan to 19th June
It's actually not 6mths plus, but 5 mths plus 15 days!
So I'm almost 3 mths done!
but
oh god... still a long way to go hurh...

2010-03-19T01:19:00.001+08:00

i vividly recall that we once talked about why guys and girls can't just be friends and why people always assume that when 1 guy and 1 girl spend time tgt it automatically means that they have smtg for each other.

it was at can b, last sem near exam period when we're spose to be studying.

hahahaha. =P

i forgot to tell you dat, my friend, we are living examples that this is possible. =) a guy and a girl can enjoy pure friendship.

thanks for accompanying to dance today!!!

x)

2010-03-07T12:59:00.001+08:00

can't imagine life without you guys...

~lub~

SHINee- JongHyun

2010-03-02T23:31:00.015+08:00

Omg. I can't believe I'm doing this but YES I AM

He is SO FREAKING CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

<3

2010-03-01T21:10:00.001+08:00

omg.

i passed my jlpt 3.

surprises do happen.

2010-02-21T03:16:00.002+08:00

finally. CA is over!

damn farking tired man.

it was freaking hot as well. to top it all off.

jean and i got harassed by this pair of ang moh guys when we're manning the media reg. booth. kept bugging us to give them VIP passes. drunk idiots. crazy nuts...

ahhhhhhh love xin guang~

2010-02-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

CA party at Bershka.

Not too bad I guess. But I was little stressed here and there. And was really tired coz i din clock enough sleep!

Tml also OT... Sat night also OT...

life!

OH YAR

I GOT AKITA UNIVERSITY! =D

yaynessssssssssssssssssssss

2010-02-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

went malaysia again!

watched percy and the lightning thief... totally shot in a harry potter style. but well, i didn't like e stars in the show so *shrugs* can't feel the connection. anyways, it's just RM9 per person. =) love spending in JB.

oh there's a new place called My Box in the Giant shopping center. It's amazing that they actually charge by per hour as well! RM15 for an hour. DAMN WORTH IT. how could we resist? so we went K for an hour before our movie. oh ya could even choose to sing a song! there're K boxes (literally) at their shop front area and ya could pay RM1 for 1 song or RM10 for 13 songs. e song selection is great, e touch screen is great, but hmmm... the sound system is e one dat has quite a bit of catching up to do. ah, shan't complain. i'll definitely come back again =D

went da ma hua yuan for dinner and omg saw a damn cute guy hahaha. and a lot of cute kittens and cats.

oh, wed = work. ah well, time to move my fat ass.

afterall, i've dance to look forward to.

x)

2010-02-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

went K for 3 hours w family today.

YAY.

that has gotta be the best part of new year.

oh did i mention i ate 2 steamboat dinners in e row?

chu xi and chu yi.

today ate bbq at pk's place.

lost 5 bucks at texas poker.

e cards were honestly. beyond bad.

-_-

even gy knows dat dragons shldn't work on chu si.

DAMN.

can i dun go to work pls?

=(

on a side note

i miss gg school!

at least i can pon.

and dat means a lot a lot a lot.

i know how disorganised and random this blog post is.

but i'm just gonna make it even more random by posting my recent fav. song lyrics.

《心动》

dadadadadida
有多久没见你
以为你在哪里
原来就住在我心底
陪伴著我的呼吸

有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你

过去让它过去
来不及从头喜欢你
白云缠绕著蓝天
啊如果不能够永远走在一起
也至少给我们怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹

总是想再见你
还试著打探你消息
原来你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

and oh well, if ya manage to follow through the post to here. here's another random fact.
i needa go wisma atria to get my complimentary contacts! and needa go on a weekday.

anyone wanna pei me go? sms me k. hahaha.

2010-02-15T01:10:00.002+08:00

啊，新年了？
好吧，那就应景一点儿，用中文吧。

今年大概是头一次完全没有提到生日是怎么过的。
因为这一次，真的觉得生日，不过就是另外一天。仅此而已。
普通得不能再普通。真的。生日并不代表欢乐。

算了。别提了。

今年的生日主角是MJ的tits和raz.
他们两个疯子竟然真的找上我的公司，在门外等我下班，给我一个惊喜。
说真的，你们真的让我很感动。谢谢你们！
６１在我们每年团年饭的那一天也为我和ｂｒｏｔｈｅｒ庆祝，对不起我切蛋糕的技巧的确是有待进步的。　哈哈哈但我仍爱你们！　＝）　
尤其是我的公主。

除夕，我们去大舅舅的家吃火锅。感觉有些约束。我真的不是很喜欢跟亲戚在一起。
朋友是我的命根。

初一，我们去邻国看电影。就看了这部《大兵小将》和《７２家房客》。

《大兵小将》完完全全地俘虏了我。　

超。好。看。的。

成龙应该是第一次在电影里并非是最会打的人，也并非是一个顶天立地的英雄。他不过是一个普通的小人物，一个不想打仗，不想死的小人物。在困境中，他总会说：“挺好的。”间接告诉自己要坚强、要懂得乐天知足。他总是想象自己把敌国将军王力宏呈上得赏之后，该如何分配他将得到的五亩田和赏钱。就连做梦，他也梦到自己在美丽的花海中奔跑。那是多么单纯、多么可爱的梦。他只想过正常的生活，无须打仗的生活。他不过想要太平。但最后，他还是败在命运的手里。这不仅让我纳闷，怎么老天就是那么欺善怕恶呢？简单的梦想，就可以被牺牲吗？

人生如戏，戏如人生。　

果真如此。

2010-02-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

the older one is, e simpler e wish gets.

but the irony is that with age, the simple wish just seems more difficult.

i wish that this will come true.

it will be more than enough.

2010-02-07T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hello Baby
=)

2010-02-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

2nd press conference ever.

It was okay... I guess?

Still... depends on the post coverage.

The real PR world makes me wonder about the truth of what's being taught in school.

You've a set of belief instilled. Yet your actions have to follow what the boss/client wants.

A lil' confused.

Went Zaihar's today. FANTASTIC.

Dance gives me wings. Totally. I guess I can just survive on it.

2010-02-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

Was helping out at a certain makeup + cosmetic lens press conference today

Guess what?
I was mistaken as one of the models.
HA.
HA.
HA.
Models nowadays got so cui meh???

2010-01-31T01:53:00.002+08:00

watched 14 blades today and it's a great show!

i love shows with lots of fighting scenes. this one really satiates me.

but also because there are so many great fighting scenes, the supposedly finale fight was not up to my standard. felt that it was a little watered down and could have been more exciting.

love the actors and actresses in the show, totally.
Zheng Zi Dan is definitely not the shuaiest person but he's definitely the most seh person in this movie. HE IS DAMN FARKING COOL. and he can really fight!
Zhao Wei and Xu Zi Shan are pretty, Wu Zun is goddamnit shuai.

Ok end of bimbo comments. Time for some wiseR words.

I felt that the script could have been more wen2 yan2 wen2 instead of being so bai2 hua4. I understand that Singaporean Chinese are totally proficient in Chinese *coughs* but still, worse come to worse, just get potatoes to read subtitles? It's in English, fyi. I felt that since the show is suppose to depict that period of time, they should try to use chim-er words as well!

Ah well, perhaps I'm just too anal. It's just a movie anyways.

x)

2010-01-30T12:17:00.000+08:00

John O Callaghan feat. Audrey Gallagher – Big Sky

I know this silence – been here before…
I’m walking blinded through your door
This is a sense of things to come
This innocence
Oh, Oh…

Breath in this moment – its come and gone
Further and faster through your soul
Open your eyes, embrace the dawn
Open your mind
Oh, oh…

Release yourself – it’s a big sky
Reveal yourself, it’s a big sky
We love, we live, we take, we give
Release yourself – it’s a big sky

It’s a big sky…
It’s a big sky…
It’s a big sky !

Release yourself – it’s a big sky
Reveal yourself, it’s a big sky
We love, we live, we take, we give
Release yourself – it’s a big sky!

It’s a big sky…
We love, we live, we take, we give
Release yourself – it’s a big sky!

It’s a big sky…
It’s a big sky!

2010-01-28T01:25:00.002+08:00

老师：啊盈盈，电头发啊！很好看很好看！
本尊：谢谢老师！=）
老师：（小声）是不是谈恋爱了啊？
本尊：*倒*没有啦老师
老师：是吗？这样很有恋爱中的感觉哦！

是吗？

revolution

2010-01-25T23:12:00.005+08:00

yups.
i permed.
first time ever.
and well, a little zi pai here and there.
haven't done it in e longest of time!
teehee
happy new year =)

2010-01-24T21:52:00.001+08:00

i did smtg to my hair.

heh.

my stylist was abit shocked dat i wasn't v surprised abt e result.

i guess i was just too tired.

it IS quite a change.

=P

2010-01-23T14:02:00.002+08:00

地球很危险，快回火星吧！

不知道为什突然想这句话

有时会觉得，自己还蛮像火星人的。

能发呆的时候总是会尽情发呆。梦游火星球。

有时自己也不明白自己要什么。甚至不明白自己。

可能火星人就是如此吧！

2010-01-10T01:14:00.005+08:00

1 week gone.

23 more weeks to go.

shall try to learn as much as i can.

which i think i will.

and i shall survive!

anyways, I BOUGHT THIS FROM PS!

EDAMAME TOY! $2.90!

omg i cant tell u how thrilled and amused i was with it! cheap cheap thrill! if i were to get it from strapaya.com, it's definitely gonna b more ex than this.

YAYNESS~

and yar, i can be easily amused. sometimes. as long as it struck the right chords =) and tickled my funny bone. ha. ha. ha.

walked 19038 steps today!

2009-12-31T14:39:00.003+08:00

a brand new year is near.

and yes i know that rhymes.

so now i've posted myself a question.

what are the 5 most memorable things that happened to me in 2009?

here goes.

1. dancetitude
if not for dancetitude, i guess it's hard for me to fall in love with MJ.
THANKS DANCETITUDE. such a pleasure to be involved.

2. shychyrazzy
if not for dancetitude, shychyrazzy will never be formed (i think).
THANKS DANCETITUDE. for gathering us from different walks of life and putting us together.

3. my collabo 21st party with bro
if not for bro's invitation to hold a party with him at minds cafe, i won't hold one coz it's too expensive to do it alone.
THANKS LKY AKA BRO. let's celebrate our birthdays tgt someday.

4. jdc 2009
if not for jdc, i will not have the chance to prove that chinese dancer can handle both chinese dance and hiphop at the same time.
THANKS JDC. and all those who supported me along the way.

5. bangs
if not for trice, i dun think it'll occur to me to have bangs, which really suits me well.
THANKS TRICE. hehehe

bye 2009!

hello 2010!

2009-12-30T11:55:00.002+08:00

finally able to view my results via degree audit. *that stupid buncha sao gits.

anyways, lowest gpa i've ever gotten. but it pulled down my CGPA by 0.04... so generally it's still ok.

and expected. too.

bought a lot of stuff from JB ytd. 2 tops, 1 vest, 1 eyeliner and pencil sharpener (which i always hesitate to buy).

and they're cheap cheap! =D a top and a vest for RM20, it's like less than S$5 each!!!

2009-12-29T01:19:00.002+08:00

being with S Club 7 is always so enjoyable.

i'm so sad dat we won't be able to do this often when school reopens and internship starts! =(

MUST MEET UP K!

oh btw, thks ed. again. =)

2009-12-27T21:15:00.003+08:00

it dawned upon me that i'm quite a stubborn person.

take driving for example. i dunno why but my innate nature always takes over and refuses to follow my instructor's advice. i have no idea if i'll be able to pass tml. but somehow i'm veiled by this overwhelming serenity.

think i might have reached a whole new level of zen.

another example. playing games. i fought the boss in my own way. i kept complaining how hard it is to fight. and indeed i spent a lot of time for this stage. oh oh gave me advice that i didn't heed.

today, i won. using my own way. but perhaps if i were to be less stubborn and heeded oh oh's advice, i could have won at least few days ago.

so now i wonder. is being stubborn, persistent and decisive an asset or a liability?

how i wish i could be more flexible.

hmmm...

2009-12-27T01:08:00.002+08:00

in general, this christmas period has been great.
even though i've walked so much along orchard and city hall area till the extent that i'm sick of these places, it has been fun.
=)
really.

and i'm so glad that u 2 are back tgt.
keke and jiajia is my fav couple and the couple that makes me believe that fairy tales can happen.
x)

2009-12-23T14:26:00.002+08:00

oh dear god
pls tell me
is it true that as long as i believe that fairy tales do happen
i'll have one bestowed upon me?

oh dear god
i apologise for all the times i cursed you
this christmas
i shan't curse you.
i know that you're magnanimous beyond human
that's why you're god.

where's my evangeline?

2009-12-21T12:01:00.002+08:00

read the first chapter and i thought i could continue with it. so it's gonna be a buy this season.

sour legs! but still gonna go for xuehui's and ryan's sessions today. hurts more without dancing.

i love that xmas tree outside ion. i love experiencing near fantasy with whatever child-like wonderment that i still retain. it's something that seeps into the fault lines bit by bit as reality sinks in. but i shall do my best to possess it nevertheless.

thanks for the random walk x)

2009-12-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas
is to pass my driving test on 28th dec 2009
*cross fingers*

2009-12-16T01:47:00.001+08:00

喜歡你- 陳潔儀

喜歡你　給我你的外衣
讓我像躲在你身體裡
喜歡你　借我你的梳子
讓我用柔軟頭髮吻你

＊喜歡你　車窗上的霧氣
彷彿是你的愛在呼吸
喜歡你　那微笑的眼睛
連日落也看作唇印

＃我喜歡這樣跟著你
隨便你帶我到哪裡
你的臉　慢慢貼近
明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰
我喜歡你愛我的心
輕觸我每根手指感應
我知道　它在訴說著你承諾言語

重唱　＊,＃,＃,＃

我知道　它在訴說著你承諾言語

2009-12-07T17:07:00.000+08:00

Hello Genting! =D

2009-12-05T16:23:00.003+08:00

after abandoning the wheel for 3 months, i went behind it and tackled it all over again.

all i want for christmas is to pass my driving. *cross fingers and toes*

anyway, on e way back i suddenly had a craving for ice cream so i went for it before i stopped myself out of guilt again. it was yummy and it came as a little pleasant surprised that the cone was fresh and crisp. =)

i was just savouring it and walking all over the void decks. the wind was cooling, the ice cream was perfect, i still rem how to drive, someone keeps feeding me random facts, my exams are ending (and i totally dun give a damn to whether i'll pass jap or not coz i noe i'll fail) and i'm gg off to genting w shychyrazzy, i can reunite w dance, meet all my beautiful friends and sleep till my heart's content and the best part is, my suffering is COMING TO AN END!

i've no idea what's with the sudden burst of happiness but, isn't it great? coz i felt genuinely happy! like all of a sudden!
lalalalalalalala~
hehe. x)

yingying is happy! like a rainbow!

记忆的甜

2009-12-04T19:13:00.003+08:00

今天妈妈忽然买了久违的嘉应子回家。

好久好久没有吃嘉应子了。

嘉应子，也叫做橙皮梅，可说是我自小又爱又恨的甜食。

爱，因为它很甜。有多少小孩不喜欢甜入心头的东西呢？

恨，因为它的出现，多多少少都是为陪衬爸爸亲手所煲的中药。有多少小孩喜欢苦不堪言的东西呢？

还记得小学的时候，总是有很多小小的教室派对。同学的生日啦，儿童节啦，新年啦。。。总而言之，好像什么都能成为庆祝的理由。老师会请班上的同学各自带一些小吃，为派对做出“贡献”。我总是会要求妈妈做一些，像用牙签叉住的小香肠，小面包，小黄瓜等。记得有一次，我带了嘉应子去派对。当时，好像还蛮兴奋的，觉得自己喜欢的东西，同学也一定会喜欢。但是，只见带来的嘉应子“守着窗儿，独自怎生得黑”。基本上，就是没人会欣赏啦！于是，我一边一颗接一颗不停地送入嘴里，一边纳闷着为什么没人懂得欣赏。

过后发生的事，已完全不记得了。但那时应该有一些些模糊的领悟，得知自己喜欢的，别人不一定会喜欢。因人而异嘛。要不，怎么叫“个人”呢？

说起来，也许我的喜欢，是因为几乎每一次要吃嘉应子之前，都得喝完爸爸煲的药。每一次都要把那一层层的包装纸掀开，才肯从爸爸手中接过那一碗黑漆漆苦苦的药。喝之前，我的脸上总是画了满满的不甘愿，满满的愁苦，嘴上总是挂着满满的牢骚和撒娇。 “喝了对身体有益，才可以吃嘉应子。”爸爸总是哄着我说。爸爸每次看了我喝完便急忙把嘉应子往嘴里塞的样子，总是会露出惠心一笑，然后把碗和嘉应子的包装纸拿走。

（眼眶湿湿的，但我还是要继续写。）

对了，以上所阐述的事件，到了去年才停止。哈哈，很小孩子气吧？但已经很久没有那么孩子气了。。。甚至有些忘了自己还能否那样子。

也许会那么喜欢嘉应子，就是因为尝过那先苦后甜的滋味儿。

也许会那么喜欢嘉应子，就是因为那碗中药背后爸爸对女儿的关怀。

现在口中所含的嘉应子，似乎有些偏甜。也许自己太习惯苦涩了吧？

嗯，真的很甜。

但我还是比较喜欢记忆的甜。

P.S. 昨夜睡觉前，想起了爸爸，只觉得有一根很长很长的针，慢慢慢慢地刺入心中。那种痛，真的不是普通的痛。　